Clarissa
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Hello. today i am going to talk about my mood swings-.- its the last for 1month- 365 days kind ok not the pms-y kinds so yes its my bad temper/horrible character yea like how i just pmsed my section today 1. i had a very bad time with my braces and i changed embou (will change every month zzz) so it was like the very first time i tried playing after putting my braces. like whole mouth pain? ytd aft i changed braces my teeth was already hurting like fk the orthodontist placed some high tech string to pull my teeth -.- and anw how u expect me to play if my lips dont press on my mouthpiece wtf. and THEN my problem which has been bugging me very long- air leaking out from the sides. my embou is not tight enough :/ and tonguing. omg i was damn shocked last week tjy told me my tonguing got problem since BEFORE SYF?!?!!??!?!?!? HOW COME IDK.... and i honestly couldnt tell. i am not only tone deaf but extremely musically declined. :( and the worse thing is i really sounded very bad so i literally just lost it. then i just left the mpr and practised myself for 2h win anot??? zzzzzzzzzzzzz 2. i really dont like my section. oops enuff said 3. i ccan play my higher notes much easier and nicer and mmore solid like really i never play so nice before BUT SO WHAT I REALLY DONT CARE ABOUT MY HIGH NOTES IM IN 3RDS I FUCKING WANT TO PLAY MY LIP SLURS AND MY LOW NOTES. so yes though i pitch my A?? (High high C once idk 4s? -.-) i really have no fancy for this kind of dandies; 4. i am tooooooooooooo biased -.- like if its around the people i like, even if they kill me i will just ignore (ya ok i wud prolly be dead) but ya if i dont like you... then sorry i cant help it myself. this is seriously sth i hate about myself alot. oh anw my juniors were staring at me like WOW YOU CANT EVEN PLAY THAT face omg i felt like ripping nigel's face apart. ok. 5. i think i am gna change trumpet :( "sharing" with samantha now. that schilky. very good for training cos alot of resistance but then again my condition lidat now TRAIN WHAT. YUP so ignore me if i am like whoa damn quiet damn black face then seriously er... goodluck. cos thats the time where i will hit you if you are within reach and if i feel like smacking your face. i want to go for anger management classes. badly... and those kind where u can control your mood swings one (got ppl as weird as me anot/?) ya the latter more impt. ok. and when ppl say clarissa why you so quiet??? actly im lidat. just tat sometimes i keesiao in sschool then go home and everyth goes downhill. hell??? oh ya another thing i like kpop SONGS but i am not crazy about those cute guys dancing and prancing around. ya ok some of them quite cute but then they all look the same so FORGET IT i cant rmb their names i dont want to be so antisocial!!!! and wtf i spent the whole night looking at differentiation stuck at 1 question asking all the possible yr4 seniors and all gave me different answers. well done singapore education system. kudos. am currently listening to kpop from mnet awards that i just heard LOL omg 2NE1 BEATS GIRLS GENERATION SO ACT CUTE YUCKS i like my instrument, but i dont like my section :( i wish i was in trombones or tubaaaaa (if i were a guy) back to top?