Clarissa
go away -_-





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well after the horrible bsp interview
gotta admit i got really hit hard
not going into details but
yea guess it made me realise alot of good things
deactivated fb on the same day as well
dont ask me why
i dont know oso just felt like doing it
australia in a few days and havent packed
i feel like a total idiot missing all those practices when im away
and not to mention the state im in now
haha 50 people
not gonna be me lah face it
i'd rather i dont get in
i really dont want
then srsly what am i doing in band if i dont want syf?
ive been askin myself the same thing
if only i bothered practicing harder
if only i was a little smarter and can
pick up rhythms faster and understand THAT retarded music language
and not get mocked by so many of my friends who
literally laugh at me like a complete idiot
haha pls lah dont tell me that nvr crossed ur mind
i dont buy that story
srsly
it hurts lah k
dont think im just being nice and laugh it off
what can i do?
cry?
scream?
i dont know.
biggest mistake in my life so far
i srsly am sick and tired of it
yea i noe
im not good enuff
keep practising
will get better right?
so what. if there are ppl out there btr than u
u dont stand a chance k
yea main band's good
so? im notcut for it
not game for it
not up for it
then just go with the juniors lah
im washing my hands of this.
im just a big ninny who escapes from reality
and refuses to do anything bout it
so?
i noe i sound like a complete spoilt brat
who cant face reality
ya i guess i really am then
its sad how seniors talk to me
i get it
then after a while
it justs
burns out
poof. its gone again
haha seniors pls dont waste ur time on me
its a worthless investment.
gonna be so fcking happy in australia
to throw everything in spore and
just die of happiness there
whatever. i noe im a complete jackass
bitch. whore.
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